Joy in the “did not’s”

Sure, it is the little things – those sterling moments etched on your heart…leaving the same mark a Sharpie would on your arm that keep us going, remind us what matters, why we are here and how important it is to relish the journey.

But every know and then, those moments shift to the left….like the clouds the small dude is always watching….hoping to recognize the shape of a goat, a baseball field, or an ice cream cone.  And when they shift, you stare into nothing.

And nothing can be great.

There are a handful of ‘nothings‘ or ‘did not’s‘ that defined my weekend.

Cooper did not hit his head again.  Therefore he did not require staples, a trip to the emergency room or the requisite waking every hour over night.

Delaney did not have any type of croup attack – and therefore was not up all night coughing.

I did not have to get up at the moment the sun slithered into my bedroom.

My husband did not wake up to the puppy barking overnight (for the first time since December 25th).

My children did not make their way into our room over night, so I did not wake up to a foot in my kidney. (or in my face)

Delaney did not cry when I removed her earrings for soccer.  And she did not cry at the end of the game because she didn’t score.

So what did we do?  Everything else.

And it was good.

Party of Two

Late this afternoon my hubby called.

He had been given two tickets to the Cardinals/Cubs game – a luxury suite – free food and drink.  He said, “Do you want them – maybe want to take someone?” – AS THOUGH HE WOULD HAVE ALLOWED ME TO PRY THE TICKETS FROM HIS COLD FINGERS.

What he really wanted was to take Coop. But he REALLY didn’t want to hurt Delaney’s feelings (that’s ok – I’m fine – don’t worry about me!) Knowing this, I made it easy.  I suggested he take Coop and I spoil Delaney with girl time.

The boys went to the game.  Delaney and I did not. With a sparkle and a grin, she said, “Mommy, it is like you and I are going on a date or something.”

Or something is right.

We went to the Library and then out for quesadillas at Chevys.

She is a REAL person.  We had conversations. We picked out books. We read.  We colored.  We called Daddy to tattle when someone at the next table said, *gasp* “Go Cubs!” And she still wanted to hold my hand. And when she said prayers, she thanked God for her ‘special date with Mommy’. I’m wiping tears. Of joy.

You know what tonight was?  HEAVEN.

Just me and my girl.  Prime-Time Heaven.

Oh – and the boys had fun too.  I think they felt the same about their night together as we felt about ours. 

Plus, the Cardinals won.