What has most surprised you about Motherhood?

I must have been 16, maybe 17…. Locked in one of many teen vs. mom battles of wills and I thought to myself “when I have a daughter, I will NEVER treat her like this!!”  cue the heavenly orchestra because really?  I KNEW BEST.

That sentiment was followed by many other variations:

“I will never say that….”

“Because I said so?…. What kind of B.S. is that anyway?”

“I will never make my daughter wear that….”

“Curfew?  What curfew?  I will TRUST my children….”

“My brother has different rules?  I will treat my children the SAME….”

So, it was surprising to me when, the moment my small girl was placed in my arms, the world shifted on its axis.  I always knew I would love her.  But I didn’t know I would LOVE her.  Because no one can really prepare you for what that feels like – the emotion that sweeps your soul – the commitment you make to yourself, to her – in that split second, “I will take care of you, baby….  Even when you fight me.”

And I knew.

I knew that all of those teen angst moments would come back to haunt me.  I will be hard on my children – because I love them.  I will have high expectations for them – because they deserve that.  There are rules.  Because they need them to shape their sense of right and wrong. And no, they don’t like some of them – but you know what?  I can make those rules….  Because I said so.

It surprised me to realize I had this in me.  It surprised me to realize that while I was wrong all that time, I really just didn’t know – how could I?  And you know what?  My kids will feel the same way.  And someday… I imagine, they will be surprised to realize that I too, like my Mom (and Dad) really did know what I was doing…

What has been most surprising to you about Motherhood?

As a side note:  Other things that I have found surprising?

  • When your child is sick or hurting, you can and will tolerate anything – even vomit in you hair.
  • I’m not nearly as patient as I thought I was
  • I can operate on 4 hours of sleep a night.  For a very long time.
  • The love you feel as a parent is fierce.  Like I-will-knock-you-down kind of fierce.  I hope I am never tested.
  • I believe kids are born with a certain personality – and no amount or ‘kind’ of parenting will change that

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I tossed my selfish Genes out the Window

In fact…I think my ’selfish’ genes are dancing around with all of my pre-pregnancy clothes…they have taken one last glance in my direction, mumbled ‘Sucker’ under their breath and are mambo-ing off into the sunset.

You could call this loss of selfishness: Motherlove.  And, I think it just sort of happened.  I might not acutally get to take credit for it entirely….

Fellow Mommys will understand what I am talking about.  When you have a baby….all thoughts of yourself take an automatic backseat.  Most of the time, this happens before you have even realized it. Suddenly you find yourself giving up the last bite of that yummy gooey butter cake you’ve been craving or whipping your own coat off in 40 degree temperatures to make sure your little one is warm enough.

Sound familiar yet?  Maybe these moments will:  There is one piece of over-cooked chicken in the whole batch…guess who eats it?  That’s right, Mommy.  There is a last minute need for cupcakes at your child’s school…who stays up til midnight making them?  You guessed it. Mommy.   Baby can’t sleep…who is camping out on the floor to keep him company?  Oh yes, Mommy.  Your toddler has the stomach flu….who feels it down her back…and doesn’t even run to the nearest shower, but instead keeps the comfort coming?  Yep, Mommy.

Your three year old wants a sip of your water and you know the crumbs from her food are going to end up floating on the surface.  You still share, don’t you?  You are exhausted, but your son really wants you to sing and dance to ‘Ring Around the Rosie’ just onemoretime, soooo…I know you put on your dancing shoes!  You haven’t taken a shower, or, forheavenssake, gone to the bathroom by yourself since 1977, but you still answer, “I’m in here!”….as soon as someone calls your name. A foul ball is aiming for your family and you throw your full body over your child to protect them without covering your own head.

It is like I heard Suze Orman once explain….when the flight attendants remind people to (in the event of a loss of cabin pressure…if the oxygen masks fall from the ceiling) cover their own faces first and then help those around them….they are talking to MOMMYs!!  Because you know our first instinct is to protect our kids.

When was the last time you ate your meal hot? When was the last time you watched what you wanted to see on tv?  Or listened to something other than Radio Disney in the car?  Sure, sure…it is a real party pleaser that we can recite “Dora, Dora, Dora the Exploooorer” at the drop of a hat, and we can tell you who sings “Hakuna Matata”, but since I’m not going to be on “Who’s Smarter than a Pre-Schooler?” any time soon…I can’t exactly classify this as top-notch info.

We give and we love and we give some more.  I, for one, have to admit to missing my selfish genes, just a little (well…maybe sometimes alot) but, I do know I wouldn’t trade my kids. (Scratch that….today, I would have, but most days, I wouldn’t let you have them)  And I do know we wouldn’t really trade any of these moments.  Sometimes you can find the joy in sharing that last bite of dessert…sometimes those late and sleepless nights mean extra hugs and cuddles you don’t normally get during the day.  Maybe I wasn’t supposed to have the big, juciy piece of chicken :)   Maybe my knowledge of pre-school songs will come in handy some day.

Today…I hope you realize how extraordinary your love, selflessness and sacrifice truly are.  Today, I hope you take a deep breath and say, “yes…I am extraordinary.”

(This is actually a post of mine from last Spring, but after spending a weekend in Chicago indulging my ‘selfish side’ with girlfriends (and my sweet, beautiful friend, Erin who is a bride-to-be, I am aware of how truly blessed I am to have the opportunity to give as I do to my family.)

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It’s Gonna Cost Ya!

Do you know how many hugs and ‘kishes’ I get every day from my kids?

Dozens.  And I can’t get enough of their little love.  There is nothing better.

How do I do it?  Simple.  I stole borrowed the idea from a friend.  Here’s how it works:

Two year old: “Mommy, can I have some more milky?”
Me: “It’s gonna cost ya!”
He puckers up and here comes my kishes!

Four year old: “Mommy, can we play a game?”
Me: “It’s gonna cost ya!”
More Kishes for Mommy!

Two year old: “Mommy, will you play basketball with me? (Inside of course!)
Me: “It’s gonna cost ya!”
Lots of love for mommy.

It is how I get paid for my job.  Kishes and Hugs.  I deserve it.  Who cares if it’s just a touch of bribery?  They are young enough and sweet enough to give freely (no eye-rolling yet).

Try it.  You might like it.

I am in love

with this face:

and the beautiful, kind, sweet little girl she is becoming.

And I am in love with this face:

and the sweet, cuddly, spirited, athletic little man he is.

I am in love with this man:

 

For being the Daddy he is: attentive, loving, playful and present.  I love his wit, his humor, his intelligence, his work ethic and his love of family.

 

 

 

 

 

And I love Gina Kelly, the extremely talented photographer responsible for photographing my family every year.  I love that she catches the best moments, Delaney and Cooper’s personality and our true love of being together.

 

 

 

Thank you Gina!

The older I get…

The more I recognize the value in friendships…  I’ve always known it is important to have friends…to have someone to share with, lean on, celebrate with and love, but now I realize how ‘young’ it makes you feel to have that supportive presence in your life.

My recent addiction to Facebook has brought so many old friends back into my life (is it possible I really knew more than 50 people way back in high school??)….but it is one special friend I feel compelled to mention tonight…

Today is my sweet friend’s birthday.  While I typically consider birthdays a time for a ‘personal New Year’..a chance to decide what you want this next year to be, for resolutions and such….in Mary’s case….I consider it one more year to celebrate our friendship and appreciate what a special role she has in my life and that of my family.

Mary is the kind of friend we all need.

She rejoices in my joy and successes.
She laughs out loud frequently.
She makes me laugh.
She is beautiful inside and out.
She recognizes even the hint of sadness or anxiety in my voice and makes it her mission to take it away.
She is the perfect example of what mothering can (and should) be.
She loves her family unconditionally, and mine like they are her own.
She trusts, values loyalty, hugs like there is no tomorrow, is astonishingly intelligent and is always honest.

I’m a lucky girl to be celebrating one more year of Mary….

Happy Birthday, my friend!

 

What happens….

At 6pm when your little one was up most of the night before coughing….

When your little guy things the band is too loud…

When your little girl starts preschool….(and she lets her little brother think he is too)

When your husband asks you for a favor (like, “Can you please make sugar cookies with a black letter ‘M’ on them for my clients?  I only need about 4 dozen or so) And you do it, because, well, you Rock!

When your baby starts to turn into a little girl….

When she knows it is hard on you….so, she goes out of her way to remind you that she’s still the little one you know best….

When you try to make little Mizzou fans pose for too long….

When Mommy and Daddy get some time on their own to tailgate and watch college football with friends…
(See JP…promised I’d post the pics!)

When people get the United States Flag and their clothing confused….

 

When the Star Spangled Banner moves you to action…..

When the sweetest little girl in the world wants to protect her baby brother from the thunderstorms that scare him…

When Mommy signs off and goes to bed…..

 

 

 

 

 

The sweetest thing

This is what I overheard as I was rounding out the end of my day:

Daddy: “Delaney, can I tell you something?”

Delaney: “Yeah….”

Daddy: “A few years ago, I said a prayer to God.  I asked him to send me a special gift….a little girl, just like you.”

Delaney:  “You did?”

Daddy: “Yes…and you know what?”

Delaney: (Leaning closer and whispering) “What?”

Daddy: “He did.  He answered my prayers.  I couldn’t have been given a more perfect little girl.  I am so proud of you and love you so much.”

Delaney: “I love you too, Daddy.”

Eavesdrop much?  Yes, I do.