Starting a 90 day journey to better myself…. and choosing to begin by incorporating meditation is a bit of a layup when I have this as my view, right? Well, for this girl – who LIVES and BREATHES to experience the ocean, it most certainly is. The ocean has always been a sensory experience for me. Last night, I sat with my small dude on my lap and explained ‘sensory’ to him. I can feel the ocean in everyone of my senses… I love its texture, the salt it leaves on my skin…how it feels on my fingers and between my toes. When I close my eyes, I’m transported to a million places I have loved and I have a perfect visual of my favorite color… the bright raspberry you see on the inside of your eyelids on that perfect day at the beach when you close your eyes and tilt your face to the sun. I adore the sweet and tangy scent and the soft swaying of being on the water.
As I sit in my quiet stateroom with the door open, I can only hear the waves, punctuated by the sound of my fingers typing. This….this moment itself, is almost like my own version of meditation – though my mind is not entirely quiet. I will retire to this view, to this sound, someday.
Moving on to Day 2 of this journey – I have a LONG list of things I need to adjust, change, ammend, and well, fix. My challenge, I think, will be not doing them all at one time. It is tempting to try to meditate, change my eating habits, head to the gym, spend more time with my kids, fix bad habits, pick up new hobbies….all at the same time, but I know I need to do it all in moderation.
Baby steps.
So…today, I’m heading to the fitness center on board the ship. I have the time. I have the inclination. And, honestly, I’m terrible about making this a regular part of my life. And I can’t afford to continue this. One of the comments on yesterday’s post was from ‘Ricardo’ and he mentioned how he had incorporated running into his life and had never felt more energized. I LOVED his comment. But I’m never going to run. I hate running. I detest running. But I do love swimming. It is the only sport I have ever done well. I love yoga. I love pilates. I might incorporate something specific later in the 90 days, but for now – my goal is to incorporate some form of fitness in to my life 4 days a week.
Seems like a reasonable goal to me. If I don’t make it ‘doable’ for me, I won’t do it. If I manage more? Excellent. If I do three, I’m not too far off and I won’t feel like a failure.
Baby Steps.
Is there a form of exercise you have found you LOVE? I’m open to just about anything. Except running. Marathons will never be on my life list. 
