I Believe: ‘Be Yourself’ Should Be The Motto My Kids Live

Sweet.  Sassy. Spunky.  Smart.  Silly.

Funny.  Fabulous.  Fantastic. Fickle. Going on Fifteen.

Delaney is all of this and more.  She is one of the youngest in her grade.  She is a kind soul and prone to checking with her friends before she makes a decision.  She feels deeply.  She is emotional and sometimes has a hard time sitting still. She is good at soccer, excellent at softball so-so at math and has the voice of an angel. But don’t ask her to sing, she hates the spotlight. She is quickly learning that working hard can mean beautiful results.

And I wouldn’t change a single thing about her.

In this picture, she was deliberately posing for me.  This is ‘her’ simply having fun.  She is not worried if she ‘looks ok’, ‘sounds ok’, is dressed ‘just right’ or if anyone else is watching.  She was just being Delaney in all her beautiful, freckled, messy-haired (and apparently gansta’-posing) glory.

As she gets older and starts to worry about all of the external things that attempt to tear away from our small people’s desire to stay true to their heart – I will pull this out to remind her of her ‘silly’, of her ‘sassy’, of her ‘Delaney’.

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I believe “Be Yourself” Should Be the Motto My Kids Live…

and that means it should be the one I LIVE as an example.

What do you believe?

More Precious Than Gold

One year ago today I sat in an airport and cried.  Stunned I wiped tears, I ignored looks, I choked on my own words as I called to tell my husband what I had just learned.  My friend Gina’s husband had been killed in a tragic accident.  Hit by a tow truck driver as he waited on the side of the road with his broken down car.

This was the beginning of 2011 for Gina.  The man she loved, taken from her, just days before they were to celebrate their wedding anniversary.  My heart was heavy with the thoughts of what I could only imagine would be an incredibly painful year for her.

I had no idea.

Let me stress: I had no idea.

I have truly lost count of the number of times I have thought to myself, “just how much is one woman supposed to take?

And yet, while I rail about fair and unfair, Gina takes a deep breath and carries on.  She is remarkable like that.  While I would have crumbled to pieces, she has held herself and those around her together.  Strong, she is.

I had no idea this friend I adore…. this woman who was one of the very first people I ever wrote about on this site in August of 2009 would be someone who would impact my life as she has. I was then and am now awed by her ability to overcome, enthralled by her giving nature, drawn in by her immense talent.

Inspiration comes in many forms, but for me, right now, it has taken the shape of a petite brunette. She is sitting across from me calmly drinking ice tea as she talks about her drive to ‘give back’.  Photographer, Gina Kelly works with more than 20 charities in the St. Louis area.  That’s right, 2-0. 

The questions are galloping through my mind, leap-frogging over one another to spill out of my mouth first:  How does she find the time?  How does she choose who she works with? Does she have a favorite?  How does she give…is it time, talent, or money? Why does she do it?

Gina Kelly’s story is amazing.  Any given week you can find her photographing (for free) a Mother-Daughter Tea for little girls with Down Syndrome, flying to the Dominican Republic to document charity work with the Albert Pujols Foundation, joining with other local organizations to outfit children in a Dominican orphanage with eye-glasses, taking pre-school class pictures, catching a bride and groom in their perfect moment of love, or donating her time to tell the stories of previously homeless teenagers.
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I had no idea that the tragedy of January 4th was truly only the first in what would be a series of tremendous blows Gina would take to the chest, yet somehow continue to allow faith, the strength of those around her and a beautiful heart to keep her on her feet.

The next was a summer diagnosis of colon cancer. Don’t think she didn’t fight it and win, because she did.

It is her style.

Gina has been photographing my family for years. What a gift she has given me.  My small people are growing at lightening speed.  And each year – sometimes more than once in a 365 day span, Gina has been right by my side, capturing the moments, allowing me to memorize the magic. (And yes, Gina is the amazing photographer who took the picutre of us that ended up in the Czech Republic.)

I can’t officially turn back time, but in a way, Gina’s immense talent allows me to slow it down, to stop it every now and then.  To embrace the smiles, the hand holding, the everything that is my small people.

The gift Gina has given me is more precious than gold.

And in return, I give her my faith.

You see,  I believe today is her new beginning.  Today is the New Year Gina deserves.  As if proving she was strong enough to beat the colon cancer wasn’t enough, she was diagnosed with liver cancer at the beginning of December.  And then, just days before Christmas, was told the cancer had spread to other areas in her body.

And yet, when I talked to her, she spoke of nothing but faith and fighting.  Nothing but beating this.

And I believe her.  She is surrounded by love – a wonderful man, a soulmate, who is carrying her on this journey, her children and family.  And friends….. many, many friends.

My friend, thank you for the gift of you.  I have faith in you, Gina.

I am proud of your heart.  I am awed by your strength.  I am inspired by your character.

You are more precious than gold.

25 Things I Believe for 2012….

I believe in bear hugs and belly laughs.

I believe one look into my children’s eyes will always make the world seem brighter.

I believe in ‘yes days’.

I believe in ear-to-ear smiles, giggles that make my cheeks hurt, and friends I can’t live without.

I believe writing is good for my soul.

I believe good posture, drinking water and exercise will make me look younger. But I have to do them: stand up straight, drink the water and get moving.

I believe I should have less and give more.

I believe I deserve time to read for pleasure.

I believe in high heels, red dresses and jeans that make me feel fabulous.

I believe in makeup and glitter, sunsets and chocolate, wine and all things that sparkle.

I believe the sight and sound of the ocean can cure anything that ails me.

I believe the most brilliant color in the world is the shade of raspberry you see when you close your eyes and turn your face to the sun.

I believe I should say ‘outstanding’ when someone says, ‘how are you?’.  They can’t help but smile in response.

I believe in eye contact and strong handshakes.  

I believe in listening.

I believe if I want to be happy, I should.  Be happy.

I believe it is easy to live in fear: afraid of the ‘what ifs’.  But I believe I am stronger than the ‘what ifs’.

I believe I have to ask for what I want.  If I don’t, the answer will always be no.

I believe teaching my children to give of themselves is one of my primary responsibilities as a mom.

I believe that dreaming big is a beautiful and mandatory thing.

I believe I should know my worth.

I believe class and grace are two of the most beautiful words in the English language.

I believe I should never stop wondering what I want to be when I grow up.

I believe juggling a career I love and a family I adore will never be perfect, but it is possible.

I believe, at the end of the day…. at THE END OF THE DAY…. my children will be able to say I DID IT: I showed them it was possible to follow my passion and make them feel loved every moment of every day.

What do YOU BELIEVE?

 

The Nate Berkus Show – Evolution and Success

You can’t help but smile when you watch Nate Berkus navigate his way through his new show….. dispensing decorating advice the way I get my kids ready for school in the morning – with ease….  and with the joy of Nate’s Crate – the delivery of a large box mixed with Nate’s creative brilliance….. an uninspired space is transformed into something magnificent.

Nate is someone I admire and find delightful, so I’m sure it comes as no surprise to know I typed YES…COUNT ME IN…and ABSOLUTELY in bold letters to the email inviting me to jump on the phone with him last week for a quick chat.  I joined a few wonderful bloggers….each given the opportunity to ask Nate whatever we wanted….  Quick decor tips?  Holiday hostess ideas? Favorite room makeovers? Decorating Shortcuts?  He was a wealth of knowledge and so truly kind…

But knowing me…. I had to ask about THE SHOW, right?

Danielle: “Nate, you are getting well into a groove with your new show, what is it like and what is the biggest surprise for you with this being a brand new endeavor for you?”

Nate: “Great question. The surprise, I think, has been….we’re developing our show basically on the air. Most shows have over a year to plan and get ready…. over 14 months is typical, and we launched our show in four months. And so, the biggest surprise has been just how exciting it is every day to try out new ideas, some which work, some which don’t.

I really do feel going into Thanksgiving that we are getting our stride, and that the content of this show is where it needs to be and we’re able to do more shoots in the field and I’m able to get out of the studio more, which I love. And the information is really honed in and focused on design and living well and ideas that people can really practically apply to their everyday lives.

And so, I guess the most surprising thing is the evolution and how much time it takes and how much energy it takes. And it’s been – you know, my producers and I have a really wonderful relationship and the environment at the show is a highly creative one, and there’s a lot of laughter and there’s a lot of exhaustion getting through the November.

Launching a new show is really hard, but every time we come up with a great story or someone emails us a wonderful idea and we’re able to build that into a great segment on the show, it’s so rewarding, and it’s – I think it’s the process that’s been the biggest surprise.”

Danielle: “Do you go back and think, “Oh, I loved that segment,” or “I think, oh, I really want to change that?”

Nate: “Well, that’s the thing. I mean, you know, most people have the opportunity to edit and we of course have that opportunity before we put it on air, but you know, the truth is I do go back and I – and in all honesty I think some of the segments that we’ve done were horrible. I think some have been incredible.

And that’s just par for the course of a new show, and it’s also a very creative process. Sometimes ideas that look good on paper aren’t – don’t translate well, and sometimes thing that you think, “Oh, I’m not sure how that’s going to go,” become this beautiful moment on TV that really resonates with the audience.

There’s really – you know, there’s really no right or wrong, but I really pay close attention to what the focus groups say and what the bloggers say and what the feedback has been, and it really helps guide us in creating show that gives people around the country the information they really want and really expect and deserve.”

Danielle: “Well, I think it’s fun for – my purpose is to watch you evolve because I can see a difference in the show from the very first show I watched to the show that I saw yesterday. And I have one final question,  so watching Nate’s Crate, I am an incredibly sensitive person, I am a ‘cry-at-Hallmark-commercials-kind-of- girl…and I know that you are sensitive…so when you are doing these Nate’s Crate moments, obviously you are not just making a wish come true…. you’re not just saying, “Oh, you wanted to change your room a little bit. Let’s just do that for you.” You are actually making a fundamental change in someone’s life. How do you hold it together? How do you maintain your composure while you are really shifting someone’s life?

Nate: “Sometimes it’s easy because I know that I’m there to deliver the story and inspire other people to either do what I’m doing or to help someone else. And I know that that message is bigger than me, and so I can be very tuned into that and know that I have to deliver the information in a way that people will understand and react to, and then sometimes I can’t.

Sometimes I break down and cry, you know, in thinking about it, but – and then actually, you know, on the set with my guests. But I think, what’s most important for me is I have a responsibility to my viewers. And if I’m falling apart everyday because I’m so touched by something, then it becomes something that is about me, and it’s not about me.

It’s about the people whose lives I’m able to touch. And it’s about the changes that my team and I are able to make, and I need to put that – you know, put that information out there. And you know what it makes me think of in all honesty? It makes me think of Elton John singing at the Princess Diana funeral. And he was such good friends with her, but he sang Goodbye English Rose to – at the funeral…and I always think to myself, “How is he able to stand up there after his friend died and sing that song so beautifully?” And there’s a strength that comes from being able to inspire other people, and that’s what I try and tap into.”

I think that final quote from Nate is my favorite….

“And there’s a strength that comes from being able to inspire other people… and that’s what I try to tap into.”


I was lucky enough to meet Nate in New York City over the summer….  he was as gracious then as he was with us over the phone…  if you haven’t yet – I hope that you take the time to watch his show: The Nate Berkus Show.

Tomorrow’s show (Thanksgiving Day)…  a true inspiration – Nate helps a teen who completed high school while homeless decorate his first-ever-true-home – his college dorm room….

And on Friday the 26th…Nate’s Crate delivery makes the day of a hard-working hotel maid…plus do-it yourself flower arrangements….

I am grateful to my lovely friends at One2One Network for the invitation to join Nate on this call….

Breathing + Centering = Balance

Picture me as a great big ball of energy…..when I head to a conference, I think it seeps from my pores.  I’m smiling, I’m nervous, I’m jumpy….I can’t wait to pounce, to bounce, to hug, to jump, and to LEARN.

I figure, on some level, every person there is smarter than me….everyone has something to teach me.

But something about TypeAMom was different.

Because I am different.

It wasn’t until I was there…..Until I hugged…Until I laughed…until I LISTENED that I started to figure out just WHAT is different.

I am off-balance.

It is as though I am wearing one super high heel and one flip flop.  Like being on the high end of a see-saw and waiting for the other person to push off.  Or get off.

But I realized something. Something about that very see-saw.

It shouldn’t be about someone else pushing off or getting off. My balance should be all about me.

Right?

At TypeAMom, I realized I had forgotten how to breathe.  I have been doing and doing and doing.  I have been dog-paddling my way through my days – just keeping my snout above water but not making great strides. I have been making lists and managing life.  I have been doing laundry and making dinner, I have been handling carpools, packing and unpacking for trips, writing posts and editing videos.  I have been drowning under the weight of a full inbox, stressing about deadlines I should be able to control, saying ‘yes’ when I should be saying ‘no’, losing sight of my goals, passing over my passions and forgetting to breathe. Even as I sit here writing I find myself holding my breath.  The very notion of sharing this with you makes my lungs feel tight.

You know who I am?  I’m the girl who, from the outside, appears fine…..her kitchen counters are clean, no dishes in the sink, no clutter on the bed side table but DAMN don’t look under the bed or in the kitchen drawers.

Underneath it all, I’m cluttered and chaotic.  I’ve just been getting by.

And really?  Really?  It isn’t good enough.

When was the last time you took a deep breath?

Do it with me.  Right now.

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I can thank my friend Ria for reminding me to fill my lungs. Not only does she talk me down when I’m walking a tight-rope of mental chaos, but there is something in her demeanor that makes me pause, that stops the clock and says, “Danielle, it’s time….breathe.” I hope you met her last weekend or had the chance to hear her during her ‘How to Lose the Mommy Guilt‘ session.

I can also thank this group of amazing women for surrounding me with goodness – for helping me let my hair down, inspiring me to make faces, to JUMP and to ride the elephant (I’m talking to you, Alli).  Because every moment I spent with them helped me to center, reminded me of what is important in my daily life, in this crazy work life and in the ‘me’ I am choosing to be.

I am better for having them around.

I knew I would learn.  I knew incredibly intelligent, remarkably creative and inspiring women would get my work juices flowing.

But I didn’t realize it would be the heart, the soul, the love, the laughter, the beauty, the joy and all of the new and wonderful friends that would make me feel right about my place in the world again.

Thank you, friends……for teaching me to breathe again.

Today, my tightrope feels a bit wider, my dog paddling feels a bit stronger and I’m clearing some of the chaos.

(and thank you, to my friend Alli.…for taking these pictures and letting me swipe them….)

What did you Take Home From BlogHer?

This was my second experience at BlogHer – and in many ways, I still feel as though I am recovering.

The late nights, the laughter…..  the over-indulgence in all-things hugging, joy and learning….new faces, new blogs to read, new products to try. I’ll confess – I walked away stunned.  I was mesmerized by the soul and heart of some.  I belly-laughed.  I ate waffles on a street corner at midnight.  I shook my fist at the rickshaw driver who deliberately took us the wrong way and charged us.  I sat on the floor outside my hotel room giggling and crying with a roommate I adore until 3am. I visited The Today Show and hugged Nate Berkus.

Oh….just the experience of it all….

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For me, the capstone was not only the face to face connecting with friends (believe me, I DO love that) but the opportunity to don my reporter’s hat on behalf of Procter & Gamble.

pg_hafhlogo_hiresP&G created a Home Away from Home at BlogHer – complete with couches for relaxing, tables to prop your feet up and rooms (just like home) filled with the many P&G products you may already enjoy in your home.

Conference goers roamed from Kitchen to bathroom to family room, enjoying the comforts of home – even away from family.

I asked…and you answered…..

When you leave BlogHer, what are you taking home with you?

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Inspiring ParaOlympian: Caitlin Sarubbi talks Vancouver Experience & Family

I don’t plan to be inspired.  But it does just happen….as is the case with ParaOlympian, Caitlin Sarubbi. How else to describe a young woman who has overcome all odds to become a member of the US Adaptive Ski Team?  Caitie is visually impaired, skis with a guide and qualified for FIVE  alpine events in Vancouver.

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